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Watched Eat Pray Love the other day and I came across a great quote from Liz Gilbert that goes like this,
In the end, I’ve come to believe in something I call “The Physics of the Quest.” A force in nature governed by laws as real as the laws of gravity. The rule of Quest Physics goes something like this: If you’re brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting, which can be anything from your house to bitter, old resentments, and set out on a truth-seeking journey, either externally or internally, and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher and if you are prepared, most of all, to face and forgive some very difficult realities about yourself, then the truth will not be withheld from you.
This hit me instantly and I actually rewind many times to hear the quote again, and again, and again, and yet again.
Why is that quote so meaningful? Because it really touched my heart of what I have been doing all these while in my life. I am always the more rebellious one and I always want to do things different from normal and non routine work.
After SPM, which is the O-level equivalent in Malaysia, I was offered a place in school for Arts, which in the end will land me into a university should I studied well and the cost would be lesser and meaning, less burden to my parents. I would’ve chosen to stay at my comfort zone and continue that path or choose another path. I took another path instead.
Which was great! I ended up at Taylor’s College School of Hospitality and Tourism and I got a full scholarship for my diploma studies and ended up with a partial scholarship for my higher diploma studies. I decided to go against my parent’s request to get into university because they couldn’t afford my college but I ended up, fine.
I took a job which pays me the lowest ever for a higher diploma student. I was commanding less than RM 15K annually for 2 years, just because I was a fresh graduate and I did not have a Degree. I held on and worked like crazy and seriously crazy with late nights and what not. I had better offer coming my way but I pushed them aside. In the end, I got increment and things went uphill from then. Till recently, where I felt that the pay and the job scope doesn’t really match.
I was offered a job double my then salary and turned it down, but offered it to my friend instead. He is still doing fine. Why? Because I don’t want to be at the comfort of doing the same thing again and again. I was then managing the company branch already.
Half a year ago, I decided that I should just come out and earn my own living. No more working for anyone at all. No more answering to those budgets and quotas and sales targets of others but of my own. After all, with all the hours that I am putting into my business, it is still the same, just the income is more than what I am getting paid previously, just a little bit more.
I always derail myself from the usual norms and sometimes, I end up with more stress and sometimes, things goes our way and if it doesn’t I would put it that, God has something bigger for me in life.
I am still in the journey of seeking, seeking what’s best and not and seeking the hope that I want a better life for my future generations in what I am doing now. Of all things, seeking Him again was what I begun doing after straying apart from Him.
In my journey, I too met many great teachers. They taught me to live on, they taught me to be strong, one mentor taught me that, as a man, when we make mistakes, we admit it, suck it up and walk tall again. We don’t have to hide, we don’t have to feel shy because we are made for bigger things in life.
Still, the world sucks me in and I get all warped into being too emotional rather than thinking with a free mind.
I was lost but He found me and I am now following His path and journey, still I do get lost from time to time, but He is still there, I know it.
I fell and someone held me up and told me to walk tall and never let anyone push me down again, and if they do, stand up again and walk again.
Whatever happened to me for the past 25 years has been a great lesson. I learned a lot and all the learning experience comes very expensive, financially. Well, not all but most of it.
Physics of The Quest, is it real or abstract? I don’t really know actually. It all seems so real to me.
I guess, I do really need to find a time, a long period of time to keep my mind in a vacuum. I really want to.
Probably Turkana in Kenya would be the best place for me to do so. Make it a holiday. Get away from the World and find myself at peace with nature and God.
You are put upon a test, where you have to decide between A or B.
Often at times, 90% of the time, you would have to choose a collateral damage.
And the time when you have choose a collateral damage, it usually plays with emotion.
Say, for instance you are a boss and you wanted to keep office cost low but you got two great sales person and of course, one is better than the other one by a slight margin of performance. You definitely gotta get rid of one person. That’s collateral damage.
I’ve seen an ex-colleague of mine, getting promised a job, but in the end not being hired because The Office decided cost was the intended outcome and my ex-colleague would have to be the collateral damage.
I also had to forgo a friendship because it was too taxing with me having to endure his non-stop problems. Friendship was the collateral damage.
A mother wanting to save more than enough for his kid to go for college have to keep a stringent diet just to do so. Personal satisfaction was her collateral damage.
Me, leaving my comfort of paid salary to the discomfort of running my own business with risk. Comfort is my collateral damage if u allow me to say so.
This does not applies to work only, while it applies to many other factors and most of these factors comes in the form of words that ends with “…ship”. To name a few; partnership, friendship, relationship and etc.
You surely got my drift. You basically choose to forgo something in order to achieve and intended outcome.
Like choosing an option between A or B?
Either one, one has to be a collateral damage which is incidental to the intended/desired outcome than the other one.
I guess many of us do have to choose a collateral damage from time to time.
What’s your collateral damage?
It’s been a while since I last updated this space…
Been busy with The Office’s budget for 2010 and many other crazy things.
One of it being Project Capricorn and also meeting up friends whom I’ve not met for a very long time…
Another thing that I did this past week was to look into updating my resume. It has been a while since I last updated my resume. Why? 6 months yo! 6 months!
I’ve never even been for a proper interview. This job is my first job and the interview? It was so impromptu right at along the college corridor. Haha.
Just came back from dinner with moi mates from Taylor’s College back then, except one.
Three happy couples they are while I’m the only single one there.
To my left, SM and KK. I think they should get married already! Which I think they are planning already.
To my front, PT and MW. Both of them also. Time to tie the knot. Nads kept on asking MW when they both gonna get married and MW replied “Stop asking me this question already lah!”. Hahah… so funny.
To my right, Nads and Nigel. Well, maybe you both will get married first! But, hey… I’m happy to see both of you and you are much happier now as I can see.
Me? I will send my invitation card soon! T_T
Swaying away, a friend over the weekend made a comment saying that guys who says they would want to look into their career now first rather than relationship should rethink. Something she said along the line of,
“If you can’t even take multiple responsibilities between a career and a relationship, what makes you think that you can juggle them both when you find the love of your life?“
It took a hit on me as it was exactly my intention and I last said it over last Christmas that I’m looking into a career now more than a relationship.
Guess I was just running away from the truth, as we all do. I’ve always wanted a relationship, well I’m not the kind of desperate for one but a relationship to share my life with someone whom I would love.
Maybe I didn’t take my chances or rather was not brave enough to get into one these past year. Maybe it’s just me or as many people would put it, “face problem”. Hahahaha. AND I don’t think the later is correct cause I hensem wat. :p (OMG, muka tebal gila tebal teramat tebal) T_T
Why am I talking about relationship here now? Ish… not the real purpose of this post.
So, anyways… I was saying… it has been a while since I last updated.
Been catching up with buddies and friends whom I’ve not met for some time now and it was good. I guess, I will still update regularly and I’ve got so many posts to write from events I’ve been recently invited and attended.
Chinese New Year is around the corner yet again, and plans has been made to meet up with Primary Mates. Whoa! It has been really a while since I last planned a gathering. Feels… a lot more refreshing planning things out.
I’m gonna head home now and crash… so you my friends, keep on coming for more as I’ve been outta my busy week mode. Will update more often!
I think it is seriously the time to run on my own…
No more thoughts about it and this time it will be final…
I’m taking the 6 months time line seriously and it will definitely happen…
If I’m gonna exhaust myself, it better be for myself…
I called a day’s off today as I was feeling really tired. The kind that you get up already but still want to sleep and no matter how much thoughts are running in your head that you have a lot of work to do, you just don’t get up. Yeah, I get that this morning.
I think maybe I was so burned out lah…
Then, the thought of if I go for Doctor and I have to MC and then I have to claim. The question of should I claim or should I not comes to bug me. Why? Because The Office cap the medical claims at RM 250 per year.
Who caps medical claims anyways? So contradicting with the Malaysian employment law…
Then, there is… who’s gonna do the unfinished business at The Office?
The answer is myself. Hence, that’s where I am right now. At The Office.
Sad? You tell me…
I’m definitely better off running myself and hence, Project Capricorn!
That is the time line, unless something better comes up!
I can’t do this anymore, I will die young, definitely.
1st July 2010 will be a new beginning.
How am I feeling right now?
I feel like I’ve just fast forward 365 days in 1 day. Like literally.
Now, my brain juice has been used up. Sorry I can’t think of anything to blog about but this instance of what has just been accomplished.
I need to re-charge the brain and also the tummy for now.
I wonder, with this kind of hours I’m putting up, why am I not in the advertising industry eh? No wait. I have the hours, but not the ’skills’. Ah I get it.
Ignore me, my brain just can’t process anything already…
Good night peoples…
It is not easy to work with a family business company…
Certainly not easy too to work for a MNC company…
The both have their pros and cons…
Seriously… I don’t know lah…
One, wants to impress the bosses….
While the other, wants to grab everything but not follow through…
In the end, all the shit will come to me…
I’m just stuck in between all these shits…
Wonders if it is seasonal or not…
I’m getting myself busy again with lots and lots of things on hand which it scares me sometimes.
I’m pushing everything by the end of 2009 as I want to start 2010 with a bang.
I want to start the year of 2010 with a new plan with things I really want to do. I can’t just procrastinate and do nothing about my life anymore.
I’m turning 25 real soon and it is no joke that I’m nowhere near where I want myself to be. Come on! I want to be somebody. Holding on true to my YapThomas’ Four Pillars of Success.
Day by day, my ambition of being hitting millionaire by 30 is coming near.
Middle this year I did a review and it doesn’t help to notice that nothing much has been done with the whole getting the priorities right on track.
Looks like my week ahead is gonna be a real busy one. The Office is gearing towards 2010 and preparation are being made to make sure we sail through 2009-2010 smoothly.
My life? It has became uncertain yet again. Things which I was real certain about came in a form of a big shattering moments which I feared in my dream. I dare not look forward to anything but hope for the best that I know is yet to come. Because, with great hopes there are bound to be great disappointments. I can’t handle or take it anymore.
But, I will not go and hide and close myself out from everything just like before. It will definitely not happen because, Hey… we all have our lessons to be learnt. We just need to grow accustom to our environment and keep on upgrading ourselves.
Heh… thanks for making this far reading my random rants, yet again.
“It has been a great year”, I hope I’m not saying this too early…
It has been a while since I turn on MSN and chat people up. So today I decided to turn on my MSN and whoa! So many people I never see for ages are online. Hahaha…
Then I was talking to SeniorWil.
YapThomas <Tan Sily Latuk YapThomas> said:
When we gonna do our meet up?
WiL – said:
ooo tricky question…
can i tembak saja or have to be precise??
YapThomas <Tan Sily Latuk YapThomas> said:
either one also can
you all don’t meet on wednesdays anymore?
WiL – says:
everybody are getting busier by the seconds…
its like in mid life crisis..
YapThomas <Tan Sily Latuk YapThomas> says:
WiL – says:
the only thing we’re lack of is family…
ok i usually set appointments immediately..
so when are u free for dinner?
YapThomas <Tan Sily Latuk YapThomas> says:
But dinner did not materialize cause too immediate already! T_T
The point is, we are not like yesterday anymore. Where we can just plan meet ups without any commitments on hand. Today, we all have to book each other in advance! Such irony! But that’s the fact and that’s life.
Even worst when the other has a partner in their life, it would be even harder to get that person out to meet up. I have friends who are like that. They are stuck to their partner 24/7 hours. I always tell them, “Hello! You are gonna be stuck with each other till death do you apart. So, come out and meet up!“.
So yes, my calendar is filling up by the minute now. More to events and certain commitments I have to jump start year 2010.
Just like how Mae’s friends will regard me as “Always Busy“. That’s what I get when I was at Solaris last week during Hannah’s launch.
“Mae says that you are always busy wan wor. Will not make it to our event want wor…”
There you go, my trademark as Mr. Busy. What else will I get? haha…
This reminds me, I haven’t met The Boys for like ages already! Time to meet up Boys!
A plan to burn the midnight oil was made last night. Moreover the past two days has not been very nice with me. More and more work and task which I’m designated with a new job function. Actually not new but refined…
So, yeah… the burn midnight oil plan failed as a short nap became a long sleep. It was a very good sleep with nice dream, but sigh…
Due to that, I’ve got presentation and report that I’m suppose to present today not completed.
Nvm! I braved myself and made it in time to the office at 9AM on the dot!
Thank God that when I was about to pass through the SMART Tunnel entrance, they opened the gate! Whoa! Talk about God answering your prayer!
So, went in to the office and no sight of Boss#2 and The Director! *phew* Relieve moment lasted only 10 minutes. They both walked in then. T_T
Went into The Director’s room and told him.
“I did not finish the reporting cause I slept off yesterday halfway doing it. But there is a doc of all their branches action plan and all.”
The Director replied, “okay… okay… we do ours first since the other branch managers are not here”.
Still, the presentation was not perfect and the report has some glitch. Boss#2 is not really happy, The Director is not as well. But then, they are happy with the figures and projection. The later matters most to me.
Had lunch, a quick meeting and rushed off for another meeting.
The rest is they usually say is history…
I’ve decided at 5.04pm that I’m shutting out all work related matters!