Year 2012 came rolling in at the right time and somewhat like a blink, half of it has gone past with a quarter left.

I’m struggling to finish this race towards the end of 2012. The road was smooth but became very bumpy towards the end of first half of 2012 and it is like I’ve put in a whole lot of your savings invested in one particular stock and am watching it dwindle down the chart towards the bottom. I could’ve died from heart attack if I had one.

It was in June that I did mention I was given a sign which was now proven true.

I’ve drop my perfume bottle numerous time and it never broke. This time, it decided to break while I was in Penang.

Guess, after so many drops, one will be broken after all huh? Either I take a glue and mend it or I find a new life?

What’s more worst is that it all came at the same time. I felt like being punch left, right, front and back. The struggle to go through it day by day.

The challenge to stay focus and not to be distracted by issues and steer ahead and walk it through, I can’t run, it is a little bit dangerous and I need to thread this thin layer of ice so that I do not fall again into the cold and be frozen forever till someone saves me again. Well, I’d rather fall and be frozen waiting to be saved or found just like Captain America. Woot!! (Too much superheroes movie nowadays… )

It was also then a wake up call from those closest to me to really hit me and tell me things that no ordinary person would tell me. Only those who really cared will tell it in my face.

It has also been rough weeks recently again, staying focus is an issue. I need support, I need encouragement and I need everything I can get to keep me through this period of my downfall.

I have read that some may turn crazy but then again, I am still sane till now. I need a new breath of life… a new beginning… a new venture… a new brave decision by myself and I need a plan…

and the plan is to stay alive and strive and not let anything pull me down. I will stand up again…