Personal

Life is such an interesting topic to talk about when you are out and about having a cuppa with your buddies.

It’s a topic that you can’t go any wrong. So much to talk about isn’t it.

Just last week, one of my buddy, Ling Kang, from primary got married and had his wedding dinner back in Klang. It dawned upon me, whoa, how much we have all grown and my friends are all getting married and here I am still have nowhere to go or any direction that I am clear on going.

Some were asking me, where is my partner. I was pretty much stunned on how to answer them actually. You see, I already have an answer to the question but wasn’t sure myself to answer them Set A or Set B. Because, Set A tells them that, yes I am seeing someone and I did ask but she decided not to go due to some valid reasons. Set B sets me back to keep it cool and be the usual “hey, I am all single and it’s all about timing and still haven’t got the right one yet and work is taking its toll on me, so u have anyone to introduce?” Guess which was the answer? No prize for guessing it right. I’ve never got wonderful good story to tell in my B-G relationships. All I’ve got is lesson learnt.

So, my life right now is pretty much back to ground zero. At 27, going to be 28 soon in months to come ZOMG! I’m still neither here nor there. I thought I was there, but it all started crumbling down. After high school, I struggled to into higher-education. Family asked me to go into Form 6 and the thought of ending up in the government education totally shrug off the idea of Form 6. Then, I ended up in Tourism Management with the then Taylor’s College School of Hospitality and Tourism (TCHT). Much struggle in the beginning as there wasn’t much funds for me to study in a private college. Things got better when I got Full Scholarship many thanks to my lazying days in High School and also a lecturer who fought for my scholarship.

Finished college and then entered the workforce when I was 21 and it was also a struggle to commute from Klang to KL with a salary of RM 1,200 a month. Crazy right? That’s tourism industry if you wanna know, it is just that bad! ZOMG!

I learnt it all the hard way for 5 years in my first company. School of hard knocks I call it. Because I had to learn by hitting road blocks. Not much of a guidance and it’s all about self discovery and self learning and finding my way out all the time.

I came out on my own, joint with partnership now and got into multiple other ventures recently that turned sour and some was good. The past 2 years, I thought everything was going all good and I was like comfortably rising and have no worries. Today, I have to think thrice on everything that I want to embark on, sometimes more.

I am back to ground zero as I said. I only have God and my family. I’m currently at the juncture of choosing my next path in life. It is seriously the hardest ever moment in my life and I don’t know where to go and what to do next. I’ve got offers coming in my way and projects and many many opportunities, but I don’t know which would do my best.

Just few days ago, my car broke down while I was driving and luckily I managed to manoeuvre it to the side of the road in the housing area and park my car. Usually, I would just shout and curse and tweet and update my status cursing my life. I did not. I was so immune to anything that comes to break me down. I turned off my car and lock it and walked back to my office. I did not for instance cried for help, cause, I know, I gotta brave this all alone.

It’s when you’ve fallen so hard that whatever it is that comes breaking you down, you are naturally immune to it already. You just have to accept it as life usual happening and take it easy. It helps a lot with God around your life. Be it relationship, money, work, family or anything.

Speaking of God, I was talking to the Jeevan Sahadevan of Action Coach recent Friday. Yes, the Jeevan Sahadevan you listen to BFM on Raise Your Game. He said, his turnaround in his life when he appointed Christ as his CEO. How beautiful it is, yes?

Right now, be it unto Him to steer my life in full gear ahead or reverse. Any way He wants it. I’ll leave it to Him.

Because, life is so meaningless right now but with Him, it is all so wonderful and it all makes sense even more with Him, knowing what I am going through right now, be it hard or good it is for His glory.

I don’t know how this post should end or start actually. I thought, I may just share it here where billions can read while I still can share.