Anyways, this is a great song by Soul Asylum, originally by Tom Petty and The Heartbreakers. Load the YouTube and enjoy.

Call you up in the middle of the night,
like a fire flower miles away,
you were there like a blow torch burnin’,
I was a key that could use a little turnin’

So tired that I couldn’t even sleep,
so many secrets I couldn’t keep,
promised myself I wouldn’t weep,
one more promise I couldn’t keep

It seems no one can help me now,
I’m in too deep theres no way out,
this time I have really let myself pull stray

Runaway train never goin’ back,
wrong way on a one way track
seems like I should be getting somewhere,
somehow I’m neither here nor there

Can you help me remember how to smile,
make it somehow seem all worth while,
how on earth did I get so jaded,
last mystery seemed so naked

I can go where no one else can go,
I know what no one else has known,
here I am just a drowning in the brain,
with a ticket for a runaway train

Everything seems judded inside,
day and night earth and sky,
somehow I just don’t believe it

Runaway train never goin’ back,
wrong way on a one way track
seems like I should be getting somewhere,
somehow I’m neither here nor there

Want a ticket for a runaway train?,
like a madman laughin’ at the rain,
a little out of touch little in the brain,
its just easier to deal with the pain

Runaway train never goin’ back,
wrong way on a one way track
seems like I should be getting somewhere,
somehow I’m neither here nor there

Runaway train never comin’ back,
runaway train tearin’ up the track,
runaway train burnin’ in my veins,
run away but it always seems the same

Listening to this song over and over again, it is just something that I realize. Sometimes, I’m neither here nor there too. I’m always looking for a ticket on a runaway train. Looking to hide from the harsh reality but it always never help and I always opt for this way out.

I just need to face the harsh reality and work my way through it. That’s life and we all have to deal with it. I have to do it my style… listen and blend in.

Be it big or small…

I’ve been watching Grey’s Anatomy and seriously, what kept me hook to it is all the problems of each individual in Grey’s Anatomy…

Each one of them is so messed up…

Relationship, family, secrets, affairs, work, friends and etc…

Looking at myself in the mirror, I am no different. Minus the affairs part. I’m a good boy…

I wonder if this is what God would call excitements in life. The journey that we all have to go through. Be it happy or sad, they spice up the life in us.

It makes us work for the better…

Yearn for the best…

Hopes for greater outcomes…

We complain, we cry and we laugh and there goes one day. Day by day, everyone in this planet has problems they need to face and they need to take care of. Sometimes it sucks, sometimes it doesn’t.

But oh wells…

… no one is alone. Everyone has to face it…

This is life… we just brave through it and make the best out of ‘this’ life.

I’m getting myself busy again with lots and lots of things on hand which it scares me sometimes.

I’m pushing everything by the end of 2009 as I want to start 2010 with a bang.

I want to start the year of 2010 with a new plan with things I really want to do. I can’t just procrastinate and do nothing about my life anymore.

I’m turning 25 real soon and it is no joke that I’m nowhere near where I want myself to be. Come on! I want to be somebody. Holding on true to my YapThomas’ Four Pillars of Success.

Day by day, my ambition of being hitting millionaire by 30 is coming near.

Middle this year I did a review and it doesn’t help to notice that nothing much has been done with the whole getting the priorities right on track.

Looks like my week ahead is gonna be a real busy one. The Office is gearing towards 2010 and preparation are being made to make sure we sail through 2009-2010 smoothly.

My life? It has became uncertain yet again. Things which I was real certain about came in a form of a big shattering moments which I feared in my dream. I dare not look forward to anything but hope for the best that I know is yet to come. Because, with great hopes there are bound to be great disappointments. I can’t handle or take it anymore.

But, I will not go and hide and close myself out from everything just like before. It will definitely not happen because, Hey… we all have our lessons to be learnt. We just need to grow accustom to our environment and keep on upgrading ourselves.

Heh… thanks for making this far reading my random rants, yet again.

“It has been a great year”, I hope I’m not saying this too early…

Then I was talking to SeniorWil.

YapThomas <Tan Sily Latuk YapThomas> said:
When we gonna do our meet up?
WiL – said:
ooo tricky question…
can i tembak saja or have to be precise??
YapThomas <Tan Sily Latuk YapThomas> said:
hahaha
either one also can
you all don’t meet on wednesdays anymore?
WiL – says:
everybody are getting busier by the seconds…
its like in mid life crisis..
YapThomas <Tan Sily Latuk YapThomas> says:
hahahha
MLC
WiL – says:
the only thing we’re lack of is family…
hahaha
ok i usually set appointments immediately..
so when are u free for dinner?
tmr night?
YapThomas <Tan Sily Latuk YapThomas> says:
now!

But dinner did not materialize cause too immediate already! T_T

The point is, we are not like yesterday anymore. Where we can just plan meet ups without any commitments on hand. Today, we all have to book each other in advance! Such irony! But that’s the fact and that’s life.

Even worst when the other has a partner in their life, it would be even harder to get that person out to meet up. I have friends who are like that. They are stuck to their partner 24/7 hours. I always tell them, “Hello! You are gonna be stuck with each other till death do you apart. So, come out and meet up!“.

So yes, my calendar is filling up by the minute now. More to events and certain commitments I have to jump start year 2010.

Just like how Mae’s friends will regard me as “Always Busy“. That’s what I get when I was at Solaris last week during Hannah’s launch.

“Mae says that you are always busy wan wor. Will not make it to our event want wor…”

There you go, my trademark as Mr. Busy. What else will I get? haha…

This reminds me, I haven’t met The Boys for like ages already! Time to meet up Boys!

“Yes, it is a piece of cake. But if you don’t reach out and grab that piece of cake, there will be nothing left for you.”

YapThomas, 6th December 2009

Isn’t it true? You see a nice cake and there is only one piece of it left. You contemplated because you would think twice over it. Thinking if it would taste nice or would it be too creamy or cheesy or whatever…

This happens in every aspect of our life. Well, it happens to most people. The irony is that, we all knows it and we always forget and we always cry over it.

Lesson to be learnt: Be the first or be the first of nothing.

It’s an early morning people, have a nice 4-day week you Selangor people! Ish!

Well, I do now as of a moment ago…

A while back, I had a dream. A dream that shows me a reality that I did not want to accept. I was and am so stubborn that way. What do you do when people tell you that “Hey! This house is not safe.” and you know and you’ve made your survey that this is “the” house and it is safe base on history? You buy the house right? Well at least most of you will…

Stubborn. I guess that is me. I am born stubborn. My middle name should be stubborn. Making it Thomas “Stubborn” Yap. My mom has the most headache out of my stubbornness. Well, I guess not only my mom but most people. Even The Director hates me for this fact. But I’m stubborn with a purpose. The purpose to accomplish a mission yet unknown to me.

I was stubborn enough to not accept that my mom insisted that I should go to local University instead of college. I am where I am today and I wouldn’t have gotten what I’ve gotten in college if I went to University. Maybe, there could be a better opportunity there, but who knows? God knows.

Well… today officially my dream comes true. Because I was stubborn…

Plus, I was so stubborn that a friend of mine reminded me not too long ago that it will not go well and there were plans for me to follow made to make it well. I didn’t conform to that plan, because I was stubborn yet again. This time, I was stubborn because I knew it will not be right for me to go with that plan. Because, even if it does make it right, it will still not be right. You get me?

God has his plans right? God has his own way in showing us the truth right? If I’m a believer in Him, I sure do believe that what happens in our everyday life is in his own plan. Making us believe the real truth, making us see it with our own eyes, putting the news right in front of our face as stubborn as we are, He will do it to open up our eyes. God is great.

Sigh… I always get this… Always…Why!?

Heh.. irony but I still remember what you, Nadia, said to me back then in college at Uma Curry House. Those words stays strong in me, up till now. How I wish I can say that you lay a curse on me with those words, but no. What words? It starts with “You always…” I’m sure you can remember.

It is just me being me… and how do I get rid of my middle name? Heck! My middle name doesn’t even start with “S”. Yes, I do have a middle name for those of you who never knew.

Yeah! How do I get rid of my middle name? I don’t know… God knows.

Wanted to write a post about overworking the brain and went to Google for a term for it. The answer came even more shocking than I wanted to know.

Come on! I just wanted a term to name “overworking the brain”. I’m sure there is like a “scientific” name for it. But anyways… look what Google shows me when I search for “a term for overworking your brain”

One of the search result is a link to “Top 10 Biggest Brain Damaging Habits“.

It is scary I tell you… I don’t know how true but people who is as workaholic as me, grab on tight.

1. No Breakfast
People who do not take breakfast are going to have a lower blood sugar level.This leads to an insufficient supply of nutrients to the brain causing brain degeneration.

Oh No! I better start taking breakfast from now onwards. Must not forget my healthy start of the day! MUST!

2. Overreacting
It causes hardening of the brain arteries, leading to a decrease in mental power.

I’m okay with this. I’m mostly calm and don’t panic as much as I used to.

3. Smoking
It causes multiple brain shrinkage and may lead to Alzheimer disease.

Not a problem as I’ve quit smoking! Yay! Another point! Moving on…

4. High Sugar consumption
Too much sugar will interrupt the absorption of proteins and nutrients causing malnutrition and may interfere with brain development.

Teh “O” Ais Kurang Kurang Kurang Manis. Another point!

5. Air Pollution
The brain is the largest oxygen consumer in our body. Inhaling polluted air decreases the supply of oxygen to the brain, bringing about a decrease in brain efficiency.

Hmmmm… we all live in Kuala Lumpur all sure exposed to pollutant air. What can we expect? Nice cool wonderful and cleaner air to breath just like in Perth, Australia? Yeah! 10 years down the road maybe.

6. Sleep Deprivation
Sleep allows our brain to rest. Long term deprivation from sleep will accelerate the death of brain cells.

OK! I need to work to improve on this more. What’s the time now? 3:13AM! Shiats and I got a lot to work on. Err… Help?

7. Head covered while sleeping
Sleeping with the head covered, increases the concentration of carbon dioxide and decrease concentration of oxygen that may lead to brain damaging effects.

Oh Oh!… I have the habit of doing this. Shiats. Moving on…

8. Working your brain during illness
Working hard or studying with sickness may lead to a decrease in effectiveness of the brain as well as damage the brain.

SEE! I TOLD YOU! Don’t work when you are sick. Not good! Next!

9. Talking Rarely
Intellectual conversations will promote the efficiency of the brain.

Nope. I don’t think I have this habit. I listen a lot but that doesn’t mean I don’t talk a lot. Come on, I’m dealing with tough customers daily and only intellectually persuasive words can win them over.

10. Lacking in stimulating thoughts
Thinking is the best way to train our brain, lacking in brain stimulation thoughts may cause brain shrinkage.

No way I’m lacking stimulating thoughts. How to be lacking when your boss throws you a sales target comprising 8 digits and tells you “Go figure how you can achieve that in 2010!”. You tell me lah!

Wow! Let’s see. My score is 5 out of 10! Not bad what! In between! Haha.

I have to improve on all these lah if it is true. Come on… it is all over the internet! It must be true. I’ve recently went for a blood test and there is even signs of stress. I must start on my supplements already! This is not good!

Health is Wealth!

If you see that I’m awake and still online during the wee hours, scold me and remind me that I need to sleep early, okay?

So here is the update!

So the many happenings that I want to update. It is either, I don’t have the pictures with me or I am just too lazy to edit them. I guess the weight is more towards the later.

I’m now on 965th post. What a long way eh.

I think I will throw a party to celebrate my 1000th post. Maybe! Maybe!

So what I’m busy with?

Life in general, that’s it. Cherishing every moment of it.

Balancing between work and play. Getting Project GCPPP on the run (which has been put on hold for some time now). Reviewing personal financial plans and policies. Looking for new home. Going crazy at work. Company financial year 2009 review. Business planning for year 2010. Vacation planning for year 2010. Catching up with friends. Retracing long lost contacts. Looking further out. Having more “me” time. Cleaning The Apartment (because my housemate can’t do so). Meetings over meetings. Driving from point A to B. Late night yum cha sessions. “Tai Chow” dinners. Random movie outings. Random shopping outings and many more that I’m too lazy to add on.

I’ve got a long To Do List on my Desktop. Excuse me while I work on it.

Hello people. This is me YapThomas and I’m back alive. T_T

Okay, on a serious note. I took a blue chill pill and feeling all blue I went on a stand by mode for few days. It feels like my soul left my body and now it’s back. I’m now out of the blue and feeling all dandy.

Put it that… it’s just life. What else can I say?

When life travels faster than our body, mind and soul does, all we need is just a break. It is when I will squeeze my brain juice dry with all the internal adjustments I need to make and clearing out all the black spots which dirtied my nice white sheet of cloth. Once that’s done, the vision is now clearer and it’s time to leave my brain alone and let it re-charge.

Hmmm… I can’t remember when was the last time I squeezed by brain juice.

I’m now re-adjusting my life. Putting certain priorities right in front of my eyes so that it doesn’t slide away from my vision. Taking out all the black spots whenever it appears, immediately. Not letting the white sheet of cloth to be kept dirty.

I told myself, “This could not be the worst.” The worst is yet to come, but I need to prepare for it. To challenge myself to move forward and not letting the past stopping me from moving forward.

Comments and views of others doesn’t matter. It is just me and my own personal believes matters most. Not to say what others say may not be true or to be believed. But it is just that, in our own life, we are the one who takes control of it and most of all, it is Him the Almighty who oversees our life.

Today, I received an SMS from a number which seems to be familiar but I lost the contact. It says, “The more you honour me, the more will I bless you” a famous quote from Infant Jesus of Prague.

In my life thus far, I’m blessed. I sure do but I’m sure there are certain times I’m being punished for my own mistakes which all the times involves money. I guess, there’s always a price to pay for not obeying commands.

These past few days, I’ve practically shut most entertainment out and focus on few objectives. Finding the right tune to jump start everything back again. Spending time alone and leaving the online world alone by itself. It was a great moment and time well spent with my inner soul. Most importantly, listening to Him speak.

I’m writing this post in an aimless manner. There is no objective of this post but rather squeezing the last bit of my brain juice. Oh yeah! I know, the objective of this post is to tell you that, I’m back. Fresher than ever!

Time to rock, yo!

I was clearing up my Facebook inbox few days ago and I got this message coming in.

I straight away said “Chhhooiii”…

Few days ago, I had the similar encounter and I was the one speaking about it. It was about getting a will written.

The person who heard this from me had the similar reply of “Choooii” too.

What’s a will you ask? Let me quote Dictionary.com

A legally enforceable declaration of how a person wishes his or her property to be distributed after death. In a will a person can also recommend a guardian for his or her children. Also known as a “will and testament”.

Writing a will is not that much of a “chhooiii” after all. It really does save a lot of hassle.

Imagine when you die and your children can’t take over your fortune or property or whatever you own. If you got watch Cantonese drama all also got similar stories wan. Children all fighting for their parent’s fortune and what not, and come on… we all should be realistic.

You can say that he is your brother or sister but trust me, deep down in your heart you will definitely feel pissed if your brother gets a larger pie of fortune than you.

What more if your fortune is being rob away from your children from a random stranger when you pass away. It happens okay!

Just one will can save a lot of time and red tapes to access one’s belongings. It is a dead man’s wish that MUST be granted. No one can take that away, and if anyone tries to rob a dead man’s wish, that person should be cast away to the fires of hell!

So, taboo or not taboo, we must face the reality. I’ve known people who has already bought their own cemetry plot. Because, buying a cemetry plot is NOT CHEAP and that’s why they need to “invest” in one.

Else, cut all the stress and ask to be cremated.

eeeekkk… time to stop now… laters peeps..