I think, there are many times that I’ve step on many wrong foot…

Sometimes, I don’t even know what I did wrong… Maybe I was just blatant ignorant…

For example, I got thrown tantrum at when I returned items belonging to 1 person. I was dumbfounded. Truth someone please… I need to know why because at least, I know what to do next time?

Back then, when I implement some new changes in the company, I was rather looked at being the bad person. I was told, why did I not fight for them so that those new changes will not be in effect. Hello, I still need to keep my rice bowl wan okay. You still need to keep yours, so you might as well follow, no?

When it comes to relationship, now I know why some people would rather stay the distance after a break-up. It is either the break-up was really horrible or it’s just to avoid unnecessary issues arising from meeting up. On this hand, I am on the later part. I do not want to create any hope, even though, yes it is over we can be friends, but it is just, well, words can’t describe it. I had few instances where I feel that ceasing communications would be a good idea for both parties. I know it is not helping as much, but as long as it is the only way to ensure that I don’t ruin it further, I shall actually cease the communication. Partly maybe because I may be the cause of all issues arising.

Hmm…..

Hate. Let’s talk about this issue, as it seems to be a hot issue right now in my life.

I’ve never really hated anyone actually. Maybe once or twice. Once was when I was in primary school, a schoolmate of mine did something really embarrassing to me that it is the topic of conversation between my primary mates whenever we meet now. Second, would be my previous employer. That’s it, I shall save the details for personal note.

Other than that, even though for someone who lied and took my money for drugs, someone who took advantage of me and never pay for my travel service nor someone who cheated on me I can’t take myself to hate them. No reasons why. Maybe, it is because I know for a fact that forgiving them would be much easier than taking them to grudge. I should have known that for my primary school mate and ex employer.

When I do something great for people, they don’t remember it. I guess what most people say is true. Your bad traits are remembered to your grave, but not many of your good traits.

What do I ask when I go the extra mile to help a friend to get things done? What do I ask when in bad times, I help both in kind and monetary? What do I ask when you needed an ear, I lend mine? I do not ask for a return if one can’t, but just a gratitude. I am glad that I have friends like that, but not many.

Seriously, sometimes, being hated is much better than being loved. Because, it solves so much rather than me hating them.

So where do I stand in all these issues? I don’t know… I just do what I think I know it is best.

Hate or love, you all choose…